If there's one thing I've learned in my five decades on this beautiful, perplexing planet, it's that the human heart is a capacious thing. From my humble home here on the icy, windswept shores of Canada, I've managed to create a network of hearts encasing my own, of souls intertwined; each connection as unique as the snowflakes that blanket the tundra outside my window.
Sitting here in my comfortably cluttered office, my fingers hovering over the keyboard, I allow my mind to wander down its usual paths. Thoughts of Emma, Daniel, and Kai, the three vibrant individuals I share my life with, softly tumble through my mind. With each name, my heart swells. I think of Emma's warm laughter and brilliant mind, Daniel's steady support and dry humour, and Kai's infectious energy and restless spirit.
Unlike many narratives surrounding relationships, our's isn't tethered to societal norms or boundaries, and truthfully, it's beautifully freeing. Just like how we open and enjoy a good book, we open ourselves to each other, relishing in the unique story each one unfurls. The freedom to explore each other's depths, sans fear or judgement, is what makes this shared journey all the more exciting.
Polyamory isn't for the faint of heart, let me tell you. It's not an escape from commitment, but rather a commitment to freedom, to understanding, to a more intricate tapestry of love. Feelings of jealousy and insecurity, which were once so feared, have become our teachers, unveiling our deepest vulnerabilities and challenges and thus opening the road to deeper intimacy. The capacity to hold, accept and work through these emotions has allowed us to blend freedom with intimacy, creating a beautiful dance of trust, understanding, and above all, love.
As I sit here, gazing out at the snow softly falling under the quiet, grey skies, I'm filled with a sense of serenity. This life, complex and richly woven, is mine to savour. Polyamory, to me, is about the freedom to love authentically, to reject the prescriptive roles society often dictates in favour of a love that's as expansive and ever-changing as the northern skies. And as I watch another day fade, I know I wouldn't have it any other way. |